☆ STARCROSSED PIMP (yume) wrote,
☆ STARCROSSED PIMP
yume

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i feel so sick right now. i just decided to finally quit my job. i feel like such a loser :'D and i don't know why. i've never had to do anything like this before. i feel broken. or something ..

god i hate this. and that just makes me hate my job even more. that should make me feel better i think, but it doesn't.

i feel so lost i think, like suddenly i am not myself anymore, and i don't know what to do to be myself ever again. have i come to define myself so much by my job?

i think i'm going to throw up..

i paged shonda to tell her. i need someone to tell me how to do all of this. shonda is the one i always turn to for this kind of advice. i just thought, i'll prolly never see shonda again once i leave. we're not as good of friends outside of work as we used to be.

now i'm starting to have second thoughts (this was always what kept me from leaving before) but i think i have to stand by this decision.

i never wanted this job to begin with, but i was good at it. and i always gave more then was asked. why did it have to come to this?

:') i think i actually feel like crying right now, but i cry so infrequently that i'm not really sure, maybe i just have to go pee, but the nauseous-wanting-to-vomit feeling is making it feel like sorrow..

:D it's my birthday today and my family tried to make it a great day, but everything sucked because of work. this has got to be the worst birthday i've ever had.

hm .. i guess it's the day after my birthday now, since its 12am .. i should go to bed, i have to go into work tomorrow at 7am, unless shonda pages back and tells me not to ..
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